Hi. I was raped when I was a child. It was from a known person, this thought always makes me wild. he was my kin brother, calm down, don’t bother. I have just started my story, touching me was his glory. My breasts were not even grown, he had always asked me to moan.
YES, I WAS RAPED WHEN I WAS A CHILD.
I was uninformed about his actions, I never bothered to give any reactions. He used to bring me dolls as a pay-off, I played with them while he jerked-off he stayed at my home while my parents were working, They had allowed him to stay for my caretaking. He was too kind, he wanted to help me change my clothes. He loved to undress me and always got excited. I was uninformed about any of his actions, I never bothered to give any reactions. I remember when my parents were on night shifts, he used to bring doll houses as my gift. I knew he would undress me and hold me in his arms, doing this was one of his norms. I was uncomfortable and he was unstoppable.
Ha. I WAS RAPED WHEN I WAS A CHILD.
I thought he knew the limits of his cruelty, until he came back to show his novelty It was dark and I was sleeping, he opened the door, quietly, I saw him sneaking in. I woke up from the sound, I had lots of questions in them I drowned. He came to me to wake me up, I wanted to yell to wake my mom up. I was helpless, he had covered my mouth, I was breathless. He grasped me with his strength and whispered his intentions, It was a moment of horror, I was helpless even when my parents were at home. He bought a beautiful doll for me to play, it looked different from the other days. I was lost in the beauty of the doll, I woke up from excruciating physical pain and the doll fell. He covered my mouth with a piece of cloth and tied my hands with his wristbands. I was immovable, the description of what I was feeling was ineffable. He grabbed me from my waist, it was a pain as if my bones got displaced. He was doing something in reciprocating motion, The pain got worse the more he moved me in other directions. I was uninformed about any of his actions, I never bothered to give some reactions. My eyes were closed and I was lost. I felt something watery running over my legs, I opened my eyes to see, I got scared seeing the flood, He bathed the whole place with my blood. I was uncomfortable and he was unstoppable. After some time, he removed the cloth from my mouth. Because of the pain, seeing the blood, I was unspeakable. I was immovable, the description of what I was feeling was ineffable. I had nothing to say, I felt like I have been punished, He let me off the moment he had finished. After finishing he stood me up real quick, The blood flowed all over and made me sick.
I can never forget that night, I’ve never talked about it to anyone, but today it all burst. I remember cleaning his touch from my body, I still scrub violently, I’ve failed to get off him hardly.
Alas. I was raped when I was a child, It was from a known person, this thought always makes me wild.
Sukriti Verma is a graduate from Ambedkar University Delhi. She’s pursuing to become a teacher.
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